Wait for it…

Spoilers for Hamilton ahead!

Falling in love with the Broadway musical Hamilton in 2016 was one of the biggest joys of my life. Truly, it ruled my senior year, and the years following it. Though I do not listen to the album every day as I once did, the musical still holds a very large piece of my heart and always will.

The greatest part about loving Hamilton is the extensive list of musical numbers; one of its most unique components is that the entire musical is of musical numbers (with maybe a few phrases of spoken word as the exception). Consequently, it was so much fun to fall in love with this song for a few weeks before a new song would hold my attention, and so on and so forth, because there was so much good music to go through. I’m sure you know the feeling of when your favourite artist releases a new album and you have all this new music to feast on. Hamilton was the same, only there were 46 of them.

One of the earlier songs I fell in love with was Aaron Burr’s “Wait for It,” sung beautifully by the incredibly talented Leslie Odom Jr. Not only is the song musically lovely, but I found the lyrics to be poignant. The reflective words of Aaron Burr, a man equally as ambitious as Alexander Hamilton but not as successful (yet), struck a chord with me. I was similarly enamoured by the explanation Lin-Manuel Miranda gave about the song, stating:

I feel like I have been Burr in my life as many times as I have been Hamilton. I think we’ve all had moments where we’ve seen friends and colleagues zoom past us, to success, or to marriage, or to homeownership, while we lingered where we were—broke, single, jobless. And you tell yourself, ‘Wait for it.’

Lin-Manuel Miranda

Hearing that from Lin-Manuel Miranda was almost ironic in a way, since he was coming off the smash hit that Hamilton was. But isn’t that simply human nature? I would have a hard time finding someone who was an overnight success in every aspect of their life, and even overnight successes are very seldom overnight.

I’ve been thinking about this in the midst of the tumultuous period of summer job applications. Receiving rejections is never fun, though I do feel I have grown a certain immunity after the dozens I have sitting in my inbox currently. But my thin layer of thick skin completely disintegrates once I compare myself with my peers, who have won awards, have jobs lined up, and are involved with extracurriculars that could fill pages and pages.

There are many problems with comparison that I am fully aware of, and yet it still does its sneaky thing anyway—particularly when you’re down and vulnerable. That’s when it likes to gorge on you best.

However, I find that I am currently still able to keep myself relatively afloat by reminding myself of a few things. The process, though grueling, isn’t over. You only need one to go right. This is a numbers and probability game—there’s bound to be an acceptance after a continuous slew of rejections.

And maybe I won’t get a summer job, which would suck. But things have a tendency of working out somehow. I do believe that when one door closes, another door opens, and it’s an even prettier door that leads you to nicer places.

Anyway. At least if all else fails, I can listen to Wait for It on repeat while I… wait for it.

x B

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